Monday, August 15, 2011
Voices are telling me I'm a mistake and worthless. I don't have the energy to fight these beliefs. I want to be dead but I've promised not to harm myself. I feel myself being dragged into depression like I was during this time for the past two years. I have few options in terms of my medication to help this time. I can't imagine taking more medication, either adding a new one or increasing any of my current levels. I want relief from the pain of self-hate. I'll take extra Zyprexa and hope this will help stop the voices, or at least quiet them so I can make it through the rest of today.