Tuesday July 27 2010

Paranoia grabbed me this morning. I cried telling my wife about my fears around work and colleagues. I took extra Zyprexa - 40 mg total in 12 hours - and I feel better now. I'm worried, however, that it took so much medication for me to make it through that tough time. My paranoia is gone for now, but I know I'll face the same thing again - repeatedly throughout my life. I can't imagine how hard it is for my wife and son to live with my inability to regulate my feelings and thoughts. Sad.